hey buddy wats up

we just got off spring break it was okay it would have been better if you was here to play basketball and football like we always did over spring break if you didnt go on vacation

football is getting crazy were goin 2 have 2 be at the the school lifting at 6:15 in the morning on wednesdays it sucks because now im goin 2 have 2 wake up 2 times earlier

me and dalton are friends again he said he was sorry and he wouldnt do it again so i said okay

but ima have 2 go

I Love You Buddy

Cayden

           The weather down here has been pretty crappy.  Rainy and cold.  Hopefully we will get good weather soon.  Keegan is so happy, he called me and told me he was going to be playing at Mound City where his bubby played, and also that he will be on your team Park National Bank.  He is all excited.  Cayden you were the best and I know Keegan will probally follow your foot steps.  He misses you so much.  Everyone still does. 

          Still very hard for me to believe that you are really gone....but I know in my mind that you are.   Everyday goes by and I think of you and how everything was down here.  So much Joy that you brought me. I loved you so much and never thought that I would ever have to live without you being in my life. Now that it has happened I am lost most of the time. Missing all the things we did together, they are gone and all I have are the memories of all those times.  I will always keep you so close to my heart and never will a day go by that I won't miss and think of you.

Your Mom made your resting place so pretty.  She always does.  A girl name Brittany placed a nice flower on your grave.  Your friends miss you alot also.  I see lot's of them and they always come up to me and still call me Grandma. You started that because you always would tell your friends to call me grandma so they did.

Well it's hard to get on the site and type everything is messed up right now, but as soon as they get it fixed I will be able to get on regularly again.

Always remember that "I LOVE YOU...MISS YOU... THINK OF YOU EVERYDAY.

XXXOOO

Grandma

hey buddy wats up

football season is comin soon we have been started weightliftin but its so hard knowin that u should be liftin with us being on the field with us and having all the fun like we always did on the football field but aelesst i know ur lookin down on us because evrygame i prayed 2 u nobody got hurt and thats how it should always be but last year i dont know how many times i started cryin before the football games

baseball season is comin soon and i know alot of ppl would want u out there because u was so good evrytime i go past mound city i look at it and think about u and how good u was 

me and dalton are arguin because he went behing my back and was tellin jada he loved her and he was callin her baby it made me really mad ive told him like 3 times 2 stop and he just keeps doin it and idk whhy because he was like one of my best friends but we might be able 2 work things out

austin is runnin track this year i think he might be faster than me now they are lettin him run the 100 meter because he is the fastest on the track team

but buddy ima have 2 go because im n school but i'll get on 2marrow 

keep me safe down here and i love u buddy bye 

Cayden, Spring is here along with beautiful weather. The kids are always outside riding bikes, playing with the neighbor kids, going for walks with us, just enjoying the day... Baseball season is gearing up. There are so many things happening, that should be nothing but busy, fun...but instead we are aching because you are not with us. This time of year is always so hard. We can remember, cherish all the times we did have, keep our minds busy, and stay active during the day as much as we can, but at the end of the day the pain never goes away...

Your dad is struggling right now. Having a horrible time too. Landen has been drawing your picture at school,  daily. Keegan talks about you so, so much. I keep thinking about you and what would be going on in your life right now, how things should be. Then I keep going back to that night, how what if I did things different. Even, if you had gotten your shower before the boys' bath, or what if I had you pop the popcorn while I was upstairs...maybe things would have been different..... I know life is not fair, things happen that we just don't understand but losing you, the way we did, with no warning what so ever,  just doesn't seem like that was God's way. Only if we knew then, what we know now...things would be different.

We all love and miss you more than words could ever say! Have a wonderful day with the angels babe!

Memory-of is still having major issues. I can only hope they are resolved soon.

heyy buddy (:

i hope your doing pretty well. i've been alright, just trying to catch up in school work and stayin in sports becasue i've been sick for tlike the last week.

i miss you alot. it feels like its been forever sincei have seen you. i wish i could talk to you everyday like i could in 6th grade. me, dalton, and alex have been talking about you alot. its like we cant stop thinking about you and your like the only thing we think about. i try to do side things when im not busy so i dont think about everything but no matter how hard i try i still cant stop thinking aboutt you. your blue bracelet like all of your friends and family have broke! i was so mad! i really want another one but i have no idea how to get another!

school has been pretty tough lately. im so behind because im just going through so many troubles. not likem me getting in trouble at school just being warn out. i miss you alot cayden and i cant wait to see you again. but im going to go now. ill come back soon!

love you buddy,

caitlyn jacobs

Cayden

 It's still cold down here. Having Mark's Birthday Celebration today. I remember that you wanted a swim  all night party at Grandpa Mellars pool with your friends for your 13th party.  Tanner is going to do that this summer since he will be 13

Nothing really has changed down here except that you are not down here to enjoy life. Like having fun with your friends, playing baseball which you were so good at.  The 2nd annual Ball Tournament in your memory are in the planning stages.  Hopefully we will be able to pass more awarness out to the new ball players coming up in the league, also new parents that are not aware of this deadly game that took you and many others.

Always remember that the ones that loved you and shared so much with you are still missing you. You were the best friend, grandson, son, nephew, brother, cousin that anyone could have had. You had a heart of GOLD.

Thinking of you everyday and missing you the same. Have a good day up there and shine much of your smiles and laughter down upon us all. Love You

XXXOOO

Saturday night at the UFC, Quinten Rampage Jackson and Keith Jardine was the main event... As Rampage and his entire team walked towards the cage, they all wore your blue 'Stop The Choking Game', 'In Loving Memory of Cayden Wince'  bracelets!  We had no idea, that they were going to them, but they did! We had people call us who was there cage-side watching who noticed it, and we saw plain as day on the TV (the pay-per-view). It was amazing! Another great tribute to honor you and spread awareness! Plus, Rampage won the fight!

The boys had a blast at their party! They swam and played for about 4 hours, snacked a bit, opened their presents, and then we headed home. Only to be at the ER by 2 in the morning w/ Logan. He has an ear infection and sore throat due to his teething! He's had one dose of medicine, but still is pretty miserable. We got home about 4;30 and Lucas was dropped off at 7:30! Your dad took a half days vacation, but I'm whipped!

I love you and miss you so much! Holding you in my heart forever!

Good night!

hey buddy wats up there hasnt been 2 much down here just school and tryna have fun

but u have been on mi mind alot lately i dont why but ive just been thinkin alot like all the times we had 2gether and stuff like that ive been talkin 2 dalton and caitlyn about it alot and ive been tryna do stuuf 2 get it off mi mind but it jus dont work

football is bout 2 start again and i really dont feel like doin anything right now cuz ive enjoyed the time off but i have 2 play because thats about the only way ima go 2 college 

i wish u could be out there with us because u would be this year but i kno that ur watchin over me all the time

but i g2g buddy so i'll talk 2 u later lv u bye 

Cayden as another day goes by I wonder what you would doing, I know you would be signing up to play baseball just for what team? Would you be pitching or catching? So many things race thru my mind.  At 14 I'm sure you would be having many girls in your like you did when you were 12.  How you would look? Still the same smile and giggle although your voice probally would have changed a little again.

 I just put together a frame with many different pictures of Tanner in it just like the one I have of you.  I am hope to do it with Keegan, Landen and Logan if I get enough pictures.

A cold and wintery day down here. As I woke up I thought of how you would wrap up in a blanket and be playing x-box.  Your brothers have a Wii game so I am sure you would be playing that one and would be good at it.

Always remember that not a day goes by that I don't speak of you to someone or think of when we had our special times.  So many memories Cayden but I would do anything to have you back down here with me.  I MISS you so much and the fun we had. YOU were my everything and don't you ever forget that.

See you in my dreams. I LOVE YOU keep close to me.

XXXOOO

Hey buddy, a junior high boy was choked unconsious last week, by an older boy, who was 18 years old, on the Tri Valley bus. He was revived by fellow students on the bus. He had blood shot eyes, very pale, and had lost control of his bowls...a very close call. They are not sure if it was the Choking Game or a serious case of 'being picked on'. The boys parents, school officials, and the Zanesville Police Department are all involved at this point and it's still under investigation. Kids just do not undersatnd the severity. It's mind boggling to me...

Your dad trained with Rampage this week. Quinten 'Rampage' Jackson is a beast and dominates the UFC. After training yesterday, Rampage commented on your dad's tatoo of you. They started talking about the accident and the Choking Game. Rampage could not beleive it. He said he used to play it when he was young. He and his entire team, took bracelets from your dad's training bag.

I saw what your Grandma Billie wrote about Keegan talking about you. The boys both talk about you daily. It's such a special thing, just how much they remember. We talk about you every day. The boys and I just had a conversaion Sunday, about how old you were when you went to Heaven...I told them that you would forever be twelve in our hearts but how you would have been 14. They could not believe it at first.

I remember your Grandma telling me how she used to take you to Jolly Pirates before she'd drop you off at Playmate or Cherry Valley,   before you moved in with me. We are all holding onto our favorite memories.

I love you! Have a wonderful day with the angels!

Mom

Cayden

  Keegan stayed all night last night we went to dinner then to the toy store for his birthday.  He talked alot about you, more than he has ever did with me.  He really misses you.  He told me that you was 14 and I said yes.  He said that you and him would wrestle and you would always win, so I told him that he probally could win since he was a wrestler.  We played a new game that I got him for his birthday "Star War Game".  He was saying how you played cards and always would win.  Mark couldn't believe everything that he was saying about you. Tho I am glad he does because I know he hasn't forgot you.  He loved you so much Cayden, as I am sure you did him.

We stopped at Jolly Pirates for a doughnut before I took him to school.  I remember that I always took you there 5 days a week before I took you to School.  You always loved to get a doughnut there and then always got one to go.  I sure miss those mornings, but so happy to have the memories of them.

My day is just beginning, but always know that it begins with me telling you that I love you and miss you.  Keep watching over all that still misses you and give them signs that you are around in some ways.

Love you Always XXXOOO

Grandma

The boys had a blast today! They were on a  roll, wanting to see everything in every room. It was pretty neat. I even enjoyed seeing all the animals. Keeg and Landen both picked out a bow and target for their birthday present. They opened a few little things last night and had the choice of getting something today or waiting until CoCo Keys, and they chose today of course... Logan did great on the way down and only fussed a little on the way home. It was a pretty good day.

In the van, the boys started talking about you. They went on for a good while. It's very special and makes your dad and me very happy, that they hold you so very dear to their hearts. They were so young when the accident happened, but they had a good  three and five years of memories with you, everyday, which we are all so thankful for! It will only be a matter of time before Loggy starts hearing stories of his 'Angel Bub'.

It's been a long day, and everyone is in bed, so I better get there myself...I love you with all my heart! Have a wonderful night with the angels Cayden.

Mom

Hey buddy it's Keegans Birthday I called him to let him know I wanted to take him to dinner and then to Toy's R Us to let him pick something out.  I can remember I would do that for you for your Birthday and it always would be at BW3.  Boy could you eat the wings.  You usually ate more then I did, but than again you loved chicken, which reminds me of the time that I took you and Ian to Kentucky Fried Chicken and got a bucket of 12 and you both ate it all.  Aunt Bobbie just laughed she couldn't believe that I didn't get one piece...but that was okay with me as long as you got what you wanted.

I know everyone would say that I spolied you and that you knew just  how to wrap me around your finger....Know what Cayden they were right and I am so glad that I did.  I don't regret one thing that I ever did for you and if I could have you back with me I wouldn't change a thing you still would get what ever you wanted.  I love you so much and miss you everyday.  Everything I do and everywhere I go I think of you and what fun we had.  You were so special and such a giving person not just to me, but to all that you met.

Your were my world  Cayden and no matter how much time I have  left down here won't change the fact that it's not the same since you left and never will be.  I miss you ahh so much.  May your day in heaven be just as wonderful as you were to me.  I LOVE YOU FOREVER    My heart will always be broken until I see you again.

XXXOOO

Getting ready for bed, and wanted to get on here quick. Things have been hard on me lately. I went through some of your things the other night, school papers, things you had made for us. I read your obituary. The pain just grows, it seems as if it only gets harder as time passes...

Logan gets his shots tomorrow. They are going to recheck him, and God willing everything will be fine now. He's growing like a weed! He's such a happy baby. He LOVES the boys, all they have to do is walk in the room, and he's excited and starts laughing! Loggy loves to play rough. When we are chasing the boys through the house, playing guns or tag, whatever it may be, we fly Loggy throught he air, as if he were chasing them, and he just cracks up the whole time! He already has Pap rapped, Log just glows when dad talks to him. Plus, it helps that Logan looks just like dad!

Keegan is doing great wrestling! He has came such a long way and is learning technique very well. I think he will be forever 49 pounds though. Landen is doing better in school. He has no interest in wrestling for any team, perfectly content wrestling just around the house. It drives your dad crazy, b/c he has the build and could be quite good at it but it's not going to happen. He said he might play baseball again this year. If hunting could be a sport for 5-6 year olds then we'd be in business.

We are taking the boys to Cabellas this weekend, they are pumped! Keeg's birthday is the 19th and Landen's is March third, so we are taking them there to pick out their birthday presents. I picked up a few things to unwrap, but they have been begging to go there. Their party at CoCo Keys isn't until March 8.

Well buddy, I have to get to bed Logan will be up again soon to eat and the kids start coming at seven. I think we have beaten the flu bug finally, with all the kids..knock on wood=) Payton is out the rest of the week, but is doing better.

I love you!!! 

hey cayden!

omg, i miss you so much..i cant believe its been 2 years..
it seems like yesterday when i seen your amazing smile at west mainn.its so hard to believe.. well i just wantede to say happy v-day, and i hopee everythings ok up there!

miss you.
<3
faitherrss

I missed making a Valentines box with you again this year. I know that you would have been fourteen, and we probably wouldn't have made one this year but we did make some good ones in the past. Aunt Tiff sure helped us out too. I know you would have helped with your brothers boxes...Landen wanted a monster truck, which turned out pretty cool. It kind of looked like the Hummer box we made for your fourth grade year. Keeg's class ended up making them at school as a group... Instead of boxes, I'm sure we would have been buying something for some lucky  girl =)

Landen has the nasty flu bug. It's going around so bad! Keegan has a nasty cough, but so far hasn't had the flu... We had a huge scare with Logan last week. I found a lump under his arm pit, last Monday night while I was giving him his bath before bed. I panicked as usaul and made a doctor's appointment. Well, Tuesday there were two more lumps under his other arm...I was a total mess but I was assured by family and friends that it was swollen lymph nodes simply fighting off an infection that he may be getting. Well, our peditrician saw him and said  it was very rare for an infant to have swollen lymph nodes in the arm pit, that normally they swell in the neck when fighting off an illness. She sent us for xrays, which showed nothing was swollen was in the chest, which was a relief!!! They are going to check him again in 10 days, just to be safe and as a precationary messure.

The boys birthdays are coming up soon. We are taking them and a few friends from school to CoCo Keys, instead of a huge bash with everybody. They are excited. We were going to take the boys to Cabellas tomorrow with Nan and Pap, but with Landen and Keeg not felling that great we are going next weekend instead...

I have been having a real hard time lately... I miss you so much Cayden, we all do! I love you!!!

Good night,

Mom

Hey Cayden I don't have a computer right now, it is broke.  But I think of you everyday even if I don't get on your Web Site.

Talked to a long ago friend of mine.  She was at the gas station we talked for about 1/2 hour and then decided to go to TJ's and have coffee and talked about you.  It was really nice to have talked to someone about you.  She said that you sounded like a wonderful child.  I told you were the best...that you loved being with me and that we had a bond that noone could ever tear apart.  I am so glad that we had that. 

I told her everything about you. I said you were the best thing besides my boys that had ever came into my life and that it was a shame that you had to go so early in your life...but assured her that your life was fullfilled with more than a normal 12 year old could have ever lived.  That you did everything and thankfully I got to be a big part of it.  That you helped your Dad to grow up since he had full custody of you in which I told her the story of how your birth Mother gave  you away and was not in your life.

Know that I don't know when I will get on again, but will light a candle in the house each day that I can't light one on your web site.

Loving you always, remembering you forever.

XXXOOO